2001-12-20 - 10:09 a.m. entering a new phase in my life. i am no longer concerned with what other people want out of life. i have given everything i can to all of those i know. i cannot give any more and continue to ignore my own problems, ignoring my unhappiness. i'm not going to stand in the back looking around and trying to figure out what will make other people happy. i need to be happy, i want to be happy. i have to find out who i am. i am questioning who i have become. i have lost everything because of my choices. i feel as though i have lost my soul. my very existence depends on the next five weeks, it will determine who i will become. i don't like who i am (nor do a few other people, but that doesn't matter). i will no longer put up with people's bullshit. i am tired of the constant naggin and demanding that these damn people ask of me. its my world now...
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