August 01, 2002 - 11:20 p.m. I know I have not updated in a few days, but what else is new? I've been pretty lazy and lacking in motivation to do anything. Work sucks the damn life outta all of us at MEASE MANOR, I mean HELL... So I have done a lot of thinking this summer, a lot of self-analyzation if you know what I mean. I have learned a lot about myself, the people around me, my family...the world... So what is the most important? Friends? Family? The one you love? I don't think that there is any ONE specific important entity that stands out there. Your friends will be there always, as long as you are willing to accept them as a part of your life and do not subject yourself to your complete "bubble". Your family, like it or not, will ALWAYS be there [well, unless you do something that the "family" finds degrading and disowns you or something like that]. The one you love will always be there like the latter two subjects, if they truly love you that is. And lastly, you are the only one left if the previous three subjects are no longer available. So which is more precious? I believe they are all equal, that all should be intertwined somehow in your life. That life has a balance between your friends, family, lover and most importantly, yourself. {I know sometimes this doesn't apply to me though, because I [for the most part] think of others before myself.} But this is the summation of my mental deliberation for the past two months. That nothing should have a greater level of treatment than another, because if the balance is offset, you may lose something that is very important to you, or damage it. Some times you can repair the damage and life goes on. And some times you are left there, standing, wondering what you could have done better and kicking yourself in the ass knowing you could have done something differently. I seek this balance. I know that I have damaged some friendships this summer by staying in my bubble to find these things out. But I believe that I have come out to be a better and more mature person, ready for the last year of high school to begin. And if people cannot accept this, hell you know where the door is. I just want this school year to be the best year ever. It's my last year, most of my friend's last year at Dunedin High School. I, personally do not want to spend this year wrapped up in DRAMA like last year. I ask that everyone act accordingly to what they want, but I stress that this year should be fun guys! I just want to make some memories with my friends. That is all. Hopefully I will see you all there in these memories. Thanks to all of those who talked to me this summer, while wrapped up in my bubble. Thanks to all that had patience with me. Thank you all for the memories. This is Vash the Stampede Signing out....Peace, Love and God Speed to everyone out there. I'll see you all on the flip side sooner or later.
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