December 06, 2002 - 7:35 a.m. So yesterday I don't get an exemption form. Real weird. I went up to the office with Carlos to see why, turns out it was because the COUNTY computers did not spit our names out for exemptions because we have ZERO days absent. What kind of crap is that? Its funny tho. Mrs. Banks was laughing her ass off because of it. I got called up yesterday to see my guidance councelor. HE called me up for once, usually I can't even get in to see him. Anywho...I changed my next semester classes and found out that my GPA is a 3.2 which I am satisfied with. Thank you retroactive quality points! Yeah I know its not good compared to Ashley's 3.4 and Carlos' 3.7, hell even Erica's 3.8, but I'm damn proud of it. Sure it can be better, but can't we all? Oh well. I tried. I screwed up. I failed. My fault. I still don't know what to do about college. I don't know what anyone else is doing either. [Not that I am going to base my opinion on other's decision] I guess Carlos and Ash are going to St. Leo's. Shaun is planning on UF [as am I but I am not counting on being accepted there]. Tara is applying to a lot of out of state universities, not that I blame her. Val is planning on Boston U. Ali I guess is deciding between Eckerd, SPC and USF. And Erica is going to apply to USF and I'm sure go there. But where do I go? I don't feel like I fit in anywhere. I don't see myself going anywhere. It's all foggy as to what I should do. On one hand I would love to go into the military and make a man outta myself. On the other I want to go to a college or university that I can get my degrees in. I just don't know where I should go. I am the maker of my own destiny. The sad part is, no matter how much we say we are, all of us are going to stop talking to each other after we graduate from DHS. It's a fact. So what should I do? Hell I'm so confused. What I know I should do is do it for no one but me. It's my life. No one else can make that decision for me. If I leave home, I risk not getting access to the money my father has set aside for me [supposedly, I'm not sure if he is still in possession of it anymore but that is another story]. I already qualify for 75% payment through Bright Futures. I have to come up with the rest of it tho. As long as I get a few other scholarships, maybe a grant or two. But where do I go. I have always dreamed of going to UF. I went there once already and I loved it. I want to go there. I just know it is one of the hardest schools to get into. So what is left, SPC? USF? The Army? So many roads in life, so many paths and yet I cannot make the decision to go down any one of them- the one that may contain my true destiny.
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